Sweet November

Hello everyone…

I know it’s been a little while since I wrote a new post, but I’ve been pretty busy with work… and I’m exhausted. I can’t wait until my body fully adjusts to its new routine.

To recap, the application and hiring process went smoothly… I came in during the dead after-lunch hours on a Wednesday to fill out an application. Shortly after that, I was screened by the third in command manager of the restaurant, and afterwards, he told me to come in that following Friday morning to interview when the General Manager was in. I went, interviewed, and was given the green light to attend orientation on the following Thursday. Orientation ended up being from 3pm to 9pm. We went through a binder’s worth of paperwork, the handbook, image training (I know, right), and classroom learning. When orientation was done, I got my next week’s schedule… I trained on Wednesday and Thursday during the lunch shift, and then on Friday night. I took a series of exams from hospitality and our alcohol/bar items, to the final 96-question food and beverage test (all must have been passed with 90% or above). After finishing up my food and beverage test, the second in command manager decided to go ahead and administer my “mock shop” which is where he pretends to be a customer and I must illustrate our 12 points of hospitality as a Hooters Girl. After passing, I helped learn closing shift duties… and then I was safely home by 1am. If there are any women out there who want more details on the hiring and training process at Hooters, feel free to send me an email via the Contact page of my blog—I didn’t want the main focus of this post to be about the Hoot, but I did want to express how grateful I am to have some form of income at the moment while getting to work in a fun and flexible environment. I did get to work on Halloween, which is a mandatory costume day, and since I had no desire whatsoever to spend money on a costume, I was able to find something in my closet to wear. Apparently when I started this job, I was described as a Naughty Librarian, so I ran with that idea… and it was a hit.  :-]

In other news, I’m doing better on the emotional front… Fortunately, studying and training for work helped fill some spare time and took my mind off of my problems for a bit. In the past week, I’ve realized taking this job has gifted me with exceptional friendships—both from my coworkers and the customers. It hadn’t ever hit me on how deeply I fell into such an asocial and reclusive pit while living and working in Kansas City the past 5 years, and this job has helped me break out of my shell again and work on the most basic of communication and social skills. So today, November 2nd, I am thankful for having the ability to choose a new path thus enabling a different future for myself.

Apart from work, I’ve recently reconnected with my brother, Josh. I hadn’t seen him since my days as a Sophomore at Westminster… so it was long overdue. The extent to which things change and remain the same baffles me, and I’m reminded that this perception of life is fluid and filled with infinite possibilities. I am proud of him and his accomplishments, and I am excited to be a part of his life again. The future looks much brighter indeed.

My life is nowhere near perfect, but I have so much to be thankful for. Nearly two weeks ago, I hit one of my bad lows, and in my moment of sadness and desperation, I reached out to anybody that was available and cared to listen. I was stunned. The outpour of support and love I received from you made my heart swell, and I couldn’t believe how many of you out there took the time to send me encouragement and advice, and shared your own personal experiences and challenges with me. Thank you so very much.

I feel alive again… no longer scared about hypothetical events yet to come, and I’m hopeful. I feel stronger. I feel confident, and I refuse to become entangled with indecisive people. My focus is my happiness, and my happiness alone. What good can I possibly bring to others if I fail to start with myself? Thank you to everyone for your insight. Love.

Oh, Life

Hello, Heaven