And We'll Never Be Royals

It’s about 7pm on this lovely Wednesday Hump Day, and I’m pretty satisfied.

I completed my 7th cardio fitness run using the Couch to 5K app for iPhone (#C25K for all of you social enthusiasts like myself), and it’s amazing. Dichi introduced it to me about three weeks ago… and it’s making me feel sooo good inside. I feel healthier and much better about myself. I’m still not sure I’ll ever be ready to do a 5K, but best believe I’m giving 110%. I can already see a difference in my legs and attitude in general. I follow each cardio session with floor exercises that focus on toning my mid-section and my legs/butt. Nothing extreme. I’m not looking to lose anymore weight, nor do I want to become one of those bulky, muscular women. My opinion is that there’s always been something sexy about a woman’s softness and healthy, natural curves—and that is what I want to be—to just be healthier and to get my heart right. I don’t wish to look back in my mid-50’s and regret not treating my body better. I don’t want to struggle with diabetes or high blood pressure like my parents. I want to live forever and ever. I’ve been eating better, too. For about a month now, I’ve significantly cut down on fast food and candy (just say, “no,” to high fructose corn syrup). And I don’t even remember the last time I ate chips (stay away from MSG). Basically, Monday through Friday I start my day by having a plain whole grain bagel, an apple, 2 mandarin oranges, and a banana nut Kashi bar. I’ll have soup or oatmeal with fruit and nuts for lunch, and I’ll have something simple like a sandwich or grilled chicken salad for dinner. If I’m hungry later, I have a bagel or snack on fruit. I refrain from eating after 830pm. I also have 4-5 cups of hot tea at work (caffeine-free) in an effort to reduce my caffeine intake. I’m not giving up my Mint Mud Mocha from Kennedy’s for anything though. I deserve a treat here and there. :o]  Just like a juicy burger. I let myself have one every couple of weeks. Mmmmm. Water consumption though. I have a serious need to drink more water. Eck. It’s a work in progress!

Mentally, I’ve been trying to read more books that open my eyes to new ways of thinking about things. Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell was recommended to me by a friend… and then later suggested to me again by Dichi, so I ordered it and now I’m almost done. It’s so interesting. Just a new perspective on success and timing, and I find myself falling in love with it. I’ve also restarted my efforts to reflect on writings like the Tao Te Ching and Carlos Castaneda’s works. Their writings are so multi-faceted and thought-provoking, and I can kick my feet up and stew about their teachings and ideas. It relaxes me and helps me let go of worries and stress. Everyone should find something that brings them peace and eases the trouble within their hearts. In a nutshell, I’ve just been trying to find a balance between the physical, intellectual, and spiritual aspects of myself. I’m realizing more and more that the more equal these things are in my life, the happier I tend to be. I want to be enlightened.

The valleys of life come and go, and that’s okay. There will always be a test of emotional fortitude. There will continue to be times when being alive is ruthlessly overwhelming for me. There will be the inevitable times when I stumble, and stumble hard. There’s nothing I can possibly do to prevent those kinds of things from happening to me or anyone else I care about. It’s the trade off of having life.

For now, I’ll keep working on my mind and body. I’ll keep nerding out to games and my beloved hipster music. I’ll keep wrestling my nephew for the Nintendo controller. I’ll keep opening myself up to people and befriend whoever will have me.

Because everybody else is as flawed and insane as I am.

Pay It Forward, Always

The Blue Rose